Prayers

Oh man I am in need of prayers and Lord please guide me in what to say.  My coworkers are questioning things that I don't have the answers for with still not knowing the Bible totally.  One is questioning on why God would create a hell if everything is for him and how is it fair when there are people who don't ever get the chance to worship or experience him.  The other one with being gay doesn't understand why he would automatically go to hell for being happy.  When he struggled with his sexuailty for a long time.  He knows and loves God with his heart but doesn't spend time with God because of the belief that he's going to hell anyway no matter what.  What do I do? 

Lord, I Need You

I heard this song today and it brought me to tears.  Listening to K Love this morning this woman spoke on how she was running out of gas to get home from a new job and she was at a gas station only had $3 and she noticed another car with the license plate that said mercy and not wanting to really beg she asked the man for $5 to help get her home.  Not only did the man went above and beyond and gave her $20.  She explained how she was so embarrased to ask but God put them both at the same gas station for a reason and it just goes to show me that God will work when you least expect him to and also when you want him to the most. Oh how I need the Lord this week.  I have been dealing with some sort of stomach bug and I just want it to go away.  I am giving it until this weekend then going to the doctor's.  So please Lord take this stomach bug away and give me the strength to continue worshipping you and reading about you, since this week has been such a test that I have been going home from work and going straight to bed with hardly any connection with the outside world. 

Pre show

This morning while listening to klove I heard then talking about Billy graham.  Something his grandson said has been sitting with me all day.  He quoted his grandpa saying that in his old age all he has left is to continue his life in heaven with god.   He said this life is just the pre show of what is yet to come.  That just totally makes me think.  Everything I do everyone I come in contact with is only a small reward of what is in store for us in heaven.  It is so uplifting to sit and imagine of all the wonders,  the colors,  the comfort,  the love,  the never ending feeling of love.    My mind can go on and on. 

Catching up

After being busy for the past weekend and then sick on Monday I have finally caught up.  This weekend was very busy Saturday I attended Winter Jam 2014 and had such a awesome night with God and many other Christians.  At one point the performer LeCrae made a comment that has stuck with me and I wish only people would push this on their children.  He said a real artist does not need to perform half naked and get on stage and twerk to effect the world.  That statement means a lot to me.  Growing up my grandma always told me leave it to the imagination and more people will be interested in getting to know you than thinking they know everything they see.  It is completely true I never had a man or young boy treat me like crap because of how I dressed or acted.  I can look at my life and see how God was trying to call me home many many times and I just ignored the signs.  It took me awhile for him to effect my life they way he did.  But maybe he made to subtle signs and not the big one for me to go through the mistakes I have to grow in Christ the way I have in the past few years.  My life sure has changed the past few years.  But knowing that I walked away from a very very evil life to a positive life that so far has proven to me that there are good people in the world who won't turn their backs on you when you need them the most.  People that are not only your biggest supporters but cheer you on the entire way, people who will let you cry in their presence and then pray for you in the same minute.  God truly has worked wonders in my life and I know he will continue to do so.  Sorry if this post is all over the place I just have so much on my mind and needed to get some of it out there today. 

Have a blessed day,

Jocelyn

Carman - Lazarus come Forth

In light of the today's reading on the Re-Charge challenge.  I love this video.  I should have watched this a lot earlier today as I was in a bad mood for most of the day.  This video is just one reminder of the miracles that Jesus/God can make happen.  It is stories like this that completely give me hope of what is to come for me and my husband.   They say anything is possible if you just believe and trust me I am believing more and more everyday.   Watch and enjoy everyone, I know I am.  It is funny how a simple video can make your day that much better.  God speaks to those in many many different ways and I wish I could only hear him all the time and not second guess, was that a sign from God or.  And then take off with the and.  Everyone have a blessed day and a blessed weekend.

Morning madness

I am so not a morning person.   Something that was said maybe I need to practice.  So I am going to try and wake up and talk to god first and see if that helps my day get started not only better but quicker seeing as it takes be about a hour to function.  God please help me be a little more chipper in the morning.  I don't want to get annoyed that someone want to play or chat with me before my hour time. 

Forgiveness

Well I've been thinking about this one. Who would I forgive?  My first initial thought was God. But what do I need to forgive him for.  He has given me everything I need.  I just need to use it correctly.  So I finally came up with my answer.  Myself!  Sounds vain yes but here's why.  I need to forgive and forget my past life and put everything and I mean everything in God's hands.  In order for me to succeed and go where God wants me I need to be open for it and not let my past sins dictate me and where I am going.  So to the people I used to call friends.  I hope your life is truly blessed beyond measures.  To my new family in christ Thank you for being here and I hope my journey only gets better and you all enjoy the ride with me.

Mind going a million miles an hour

Today and part of last night my mind is going crazy. I've been racking my mind on how to get my greeters excited to be on the team.  I have a few ideas on how to start that.  But I know it starts with me.  I myself need to get back into the swing of things.  This winter has been brutal but doesn't mean God's work is to be put on hold.  So look out world I am on a mission and I do not want to stop.

Family time

Today at church we were challenged to re charge and reconnect family time.  Well in lew of the challenge today my husband and I spent quality time putting together our new tv stand for the bedroom.  Had a great message at church and then a good talk with a  renee. I'd call that I great Sunday with family and god.

Food for thought

After reading today re charge challenge one of the questions really made me think.  When the people came looking for jesus the next day because they were hungry again.  How did jesus redirect them? I can only imagine being there in his presence.  Because now I am thirsty for learning more, connecting more with jesus.  If I don't go to church I feel completely weird my whole week will be off.   I only wish I could control my temptations of the world around me and live a simple life.  My only real dream is to be a mother live comfortably where I'm not broke all the time.  Through god I know this will happen in time.  

God's voice

Last night in my life group we touched based on how it's difficult for us to hear god at times.  And at times you may hear something and not even realize it is god. My next goal is going to try and listen to all the signs.

Forward

This week I accepted a challenge of giving forward.  Well usually I chicken out on these type of challenges.  But with God's help this morning while I was in line at Tim Hortons the lady behind me was digging for change to pay for her bagel.  So I stepped up told the girl at the window I wanted to pay for hers.  The smile on her face when I was leaving the parking lot said it all.  So hopefully with God's assistance o can become brave on doing more things like this in bigger ways.

Prayers

In a attempt to let all my prayer sheep (the people I pray for daily), if that is what I call them.  Besides praying for them I Love to randomly send then cards as a reminder that I pray for them.  I just sent out a batch to all but two.  I hope they bring them smiles. 

Today

Today was a hard day of dealing with moody people and sort of getting yelled at for something that is not my fault.  I guess from now on I have to do my own job and not help others out.  By talking with god in my head I kept my cool and did not get over emotional.  Now to spend some time reading isiah for a challenge I accepted from a church family member. 

Thankful

Today I am starting a thankful jar.  In it myself and maybe coworkers will be putting things we are thankful for.  God supplies us with what we have why not give thanks for it when we need a little pick me up.

The Recharge Challenge : Introducing the Gospel of John

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Recharge

Time to start journaling again.  I'm going to recharge me faith.  Spend more time with God, whether it be reading the Bible,  in prayer or taking on challenges.  It starts here and starts today.