week ending

As this week starts to come to an end and the long weekend starts and I get ready for vacation.  I think as blessed as I am that I will be seeing my family, mainly my brother. I can't help but be weirded out by my visit.  I am going to be spending time with my brother at his church which is a mormon church.  While I know they believe in Jesus the one thing I don't get about their religion is how can you base your beliefs on a book that someone claims was written and taken up by angels with no proof of this.  With the bible you can actually go and see original pages and things that happen in the world all connect with the bible.  The only issue many people have and I at times have is the burning question is the bible translated correctly?!  So as I go on vacation and become surrounded by Mormon's I can only hope that some good conversations come out of this upcoming vacation.  Jesus please put kindness on my heart so that I may not judge people while I am there on vacation.

Have a blessed day

Jocelyn

Loss for words

Today I was sitting in between two people who were talking about the bible and how they will never believe everything that is in it.  Only because they have asked a minister how is it different from what the bible says is a sin and how it states if you were to get a divorce and remarry you are commiting adultery?!  The answer she got was because entering into a marriage you can get forgiveness.  But to me that makes no sense, how can you not get forgiveness for being gay then if that bible says you can be forgiven for your sins?  Sometimes I don't think people truly think about things before they respond.  Some people are so used to just saying go look it up in the bible what does that say.  True you can look things up in the bible but you also need to pray on some things and then go forward.  If you were to pray asking Jesus please lead my tongue maybe the world would be in a much better place.  But it is when I am in moments like that listening to two people who know the bible so much better than me that I feel ignorant and at a loss of how to defend my faith.    Lord please put things on the tip of my tongue when I am in a moment that I may defend your word.


Jocelyn

Join me in the meeting.

I was listening to a sermon by Tony Evans and some things he pointed out stuck with me.

1st one was "That is it not just about God.  It is about Jesus too."  As he pointed out that in Matthew 20:18 Jesus said: "ALL AUTHORITY IN HEAVEN AND ON EARTH HAS BEEN GIVEN TO ME".
Wow what a thing to be handed by our great Father.  Do you think God gave Jesus that authority because Jesus walked among us and dealt with the temptations that some of us give into everyday and he maybe can relate better to us?  Think about that one for a minute or two.

2nd thing was the main thing.  If you read Matthew 28:16-20 THE GREAT COMMISSION I encourage you to reread it after this and ponder on what I heard from Tony Evans because I myself have had my eyes opened that much wider.  Sometimes there are things you read and you don't really let an important part sink in or you think another part of it is important.  Ready here we go!  Matthew 28:20  and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you.  And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.

Did you catch it?  Let me help.  AND SURELY I AM WITH YOU ALWAYS, TO THE VERY END OF THE AGE.  There see it, now let me explain what Tony Evans pointed out that has my eyes open.  If Jesus said that right after he said ALL AUTHORITY IN HEAVEN AND ON EARTH HAS BEEN GIVEN TO ME.  This could only me one thing, WE ARE ACTUALLY PART OF THIS MEETING ON THE MOUNTAIN. Now take that in.  Let it sink in.  So for me when people say God and Jesus or not dead oh I really truly believe that now.  I just need to tap in and let Jesus lead me instead of this world leading me.  Meeting Jesus face to face and being told great work will probably be the proudest moment for both of us.  I don't want to disappoint him.  I need to be not just a good Disciple but a GREAT ONE.  Now that I officially have a mentor I look forward to this new road that I am on.  Just to make it clear I am only putting a portion of Matthew 20 to get the whole message I encourage you to read the whole part.  This way you cannot read and think Jesus is trying to lead to fear or be intimated to do his work.

Have a blessed day

Jocelyn

Chills

I can honestly say that I have never gotten chills praying. But today I was sitting by myself praying for those christians in Iraq and literally as I prayed for Jesus to shield them and take the blades from the enemies hands I got the chills over my entire body.  This is the first time I truly know that not only did our father hear my prayer but I feel as if he is working on it already.  I may not pray as much as I should but truly after this prayer I really know there is power in prayer.  Please Lord cover those in iraq with your shield and protect them from this evil. 

Have a blessed day and join me in prayer

Jocelyn

Being a Mentor

Jesus made His style of mentoring clear:

 “If anyone will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross and follow me” (Matthew 16:24-26). Christian mentoring is a process dependent upon submission to Christ. Neither the mentor nor the candidate controls the relationship. As such, the process is best characterized by mutual sharing, trust, and enrichment as the life and work of both participants is changed. The mentor serves as a model and a trusted listener. The mentor relies on the Holy Spirit to provide insight, change lives, and teach through the modeling process.  

Ask yourself are you capable of being a mentor to someone?  Would you want to be?  Is it possible that you are and not know it?!  Is there someone who claims to be but doesn't seem good at?

 All of those questions speak to me. But then I think to myself how do I get there?  How do I know better and be a better mentor?  Should I step up and be a mentor to the youth?  Then I think if someone wants me involved they will involve me.  Then I also think, how are you going to be involved if you don't get yourself involved.  The struggles we have within ourselves sometimes are the worst struggles because we end up beating up ourselves and we miss out on life.  

I work on myself everyday to try and be a better person, some days I succeed and some days I fail.  But I keep going at it and I know God is there with me.  I think my mistakes that I make can be great for being a mentor, the things I have done in my past would be great to discuss with some.  I just have to get there.  

Last question how do I become a mentor like Jesus?  Think of that question and keep trying to answer it.

Have a blessed day

Jocelyn

A word often translated “peace” in the Bible actually means “to tie together as a whole

A word often translated “peace” in the Bible actually means “to tie together as a whole, when all essential parts are joined together.” Inner peace, then, is a wholeness of mind and spirit, a whole heart at rest. Inner peace has little to do with external surroundings. Jesus said, “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” He had also told His followers that “in this world you will have many troubles. But take heart! I have overcome the world” (John 16:33). So peace is not the absence of trouble; it is the presence of God.

I have been seeking peace in my life lately from many things.  I have been talking with my best friend (whom I vent to all the time) about things going on.  Going with yesterday's post about letting my heart care but being alert on things that don't really concern me and not let it over take my head.  I really want to find peace and I feel the only way I can,  is to truly let the politics, and the gossiping happening around that are not in my control roll out of my head.  It will be hard to not even talk about it things that bug me at times but I will get through it.  

People need to stop and realize why we are really here in the first place.  Is it to show one another up, is it to make more money than the other?  Or is it to do whatever we can for God?  I choose God.  I want people to get over (me included) themselves and open their eyes and realize "We tie together as a whole".  Christians are not supposed to fight over petty things, not stress about the small stuff and be a family. 

 I know I have a big heart and it is hard for me not to love.  I have to learn to love from a far with some in my life.  I have friends I would do anything for but lately I am tired of one sided friendships.  I know where I belong and who belongs in my life and I know God will bring others my way I just hope I can make him proud and change some lives.

Jocelyn

My new Goal

My new goal for myself is to try and let things go.  I feel that I care way too much about things that really have no effect on me.  I need to put my focus on my relationship with God and do the things that I know God wants me to do.  I know that there are some things I still need to make sure I know about but unless it truly effects my well being and is not a bump in path to heaven, then I need to leave it alone.  So I ask whoever is reading this, look at yourself in the mirror ask yourself before you ask the questions.  Does this effect me?   I will continue to let my heart care too much but I will be cautious on getting too involved.

Have a blessed day

Jocelyn

Make a Life by what we give.

Today I watched a video where a young man was in a food court asking people for extra food.  Not one of those people gave anything they all turned him away.  Him and his friends took the experiment a little further from that and took food to homeless people gave it to them and then the one would go over and ask if they had food and they would give them some no questions asked.  It amazes me (and I am guilty as well) how society will turn our backs on someone like that.  You never know what someone is going through and it takes a lot of nerve for them to even ask I am sure.  Matthew 6:3-4
But when you give to the poor, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, so that your giving will be in secret; and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you.  

You do not have to make your giving a public affair, the only person you have to please if God and yourself.  The opinions of what others have, what others may say about you, is their problem they are only making your life more interesting than it may be.  Even if you are in a situation where you are in need always remember someone is there to help just don't be afraid to ask.   

Treat as God as your father, your bestfriend, your brother, you everything.  Talk with him whenever you are in need of anything.

Have a blessed day

Jocelyn

Talk my ear off

While I love that people feel comfortable enough to use my ears to get it off their chest.   Today I learned from a nice lady who is having issues with family and health tell me a little too much about her health.  I will pray for her health though and her situation.  But she did leave  give me a hug, tell me to have a blessed day and told me she feels so much better for getting it off her chest.  Then to turn around 5 minutes later and be told by someone else she doesn't really know how much longer she has.  She has ALL  some kind of luekima. I will too pray for her.  She ended our conversation saying have a blessed day.  I was thinking people tell me too much that I don't need to know.  But after typing this out I realize maybe this is something God wants to use me for.  To give people comfort,  to know they are telling someone that will listen be heart broken for them and pray for their peace during their struggles.   While I can't have control over circumstances I can just be there when needed.

Much blessings

Jocelyn

Today's random reading Psalm 96

Today's random reading starts off saying "Sing to the Lord a new song; sing to the Lord, all the earth.  Then it ends saying "He will judge the world in righteousness and the peoples in his truth.  What a range from the beginning of that to the end.  Just by reading the first lines to the last lines and not reading anything in between I get the since of:  Ask the Lord to renew you in him because in the end he will come back and pass eternal judgement on you for what is truly in your heart.  To be kind to people to show compassion to people and to try and help people get to Jesus should be a everyday concern.  To think of that day when I finally get to meet Jesus makes my heart feel full and to give myself a daily reminder of how and why he died should also be a daily reminder.

Have peace today in the Lord

Jocelyn

The Final Fight Is Over

This just saddens my heart and brought tears to my heart.

  People may be rich with 

money but you never know what is really hiding under all of 

it. 

Whether someone is rich and famous or just an average 

person we all need to kind to one another and be alert of 

our surroundings.

The following article was not written by me but I wanted to share it. 

‘The Final Fight Is Over’ — Husband Of The Assistant Who Found Robin Williams’ Body Speaks Out About His ‘Heartbreaking’ Last Days

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The same day that Robin Williams’ assistant Rebecca Erwin Spencer, discovered his tragic death scene, her husband, Dan Spencer, spoke out about the couple’s relationship with the tortured star, RadarOnline.com has learned, and the pain he suffered in his “final fight.”

In a revealing and heart-rending tribute posted on Facebook, Spencer has broken his silence and shed light on the “war” that drove his “hero” to suicide.

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“As a little boy, he was alone in his room with his toy soldiers while his parents went off on business trips,” Spencer wrote. “You can imagine his mother and father telling him to be a good little soldier while they were away. Then he would be left alone to play with his friends, which were little Army men. When his parents returned, he received a gift, a token for his good behavior, maybe more little soldiers to add to his collection.”

“Those toys remained with him throughout his life and were often given prominent space in his home on specially crafted display cases,” he continued. “He discovered video games, first-person shooters for computer and then for Xbox. Name a game, no matter how obscure, and he owned it. He played his soldier games even up to age 62. We had an expression for his avid gaming. We said he was in there ‘saving the world.’”

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Referencing his many USO tours, Spencer remembered, “Then he went off to dangerous places like Afghanistan and Iraq at the height of war to entertain the troops, the soldiers. Maybe it was a way to pay back his boyhood friends. Those of us lucky enough to be in his sphere saw our hero conquer the world. We joined him on journeys across the globe. He killed ‘em! He slayed ‘em! What great victories! What wondrous experiences! We were incredibly fortunate to follow him into the breach. With laughter, love, and kindness, he did it! He saved the world!”

“In his advancing years, our hero found a new love who we knew would march with him to the end of the rainbow,” Spencer said, perhaps referring to Williams’ wife of nearly three years, Susan Schneider. “After decades of battles, a happy ending was in sight.”

“But his final conflict was heartbreaking to witness,” Spencer continued. “Oh, if you could only have seen the war raging inside him. It would have stopped your heart. We fought the fight with him, but it left him defeated.”

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“Now our hero has laid down his arms. He has bid his soldiers farewell. The final fight is over,” Spencer wrote. “At last, that lonely little boy is at peace.”

As Radar reported, Spencer’s wife Rebecca was the one who found Williams dead on Monday afternoon in his Tiburon, Calif., home, with a belt around his neck and “superficial” cuts on his left wrist.

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Her husband, Dan, was also close to Williams in his final days. Back in April, Williams wrote on his Facebook page that the author “keeps me going.”

If anyone you know, is struggling with thoughts of suicide, please immediately seek help. You can speak with a skilled, trained counselor at a national Suicide Prevention Lifeline crisis center in your area, anytime 24/7 — call 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

Put it out there.

Sometimes I just have to put things out there in this blog to get it off my chest so I can move on.  I only hope some if not all of you can make sense of my crazy thoughts at times. So don't think oh my something is truly wrong with this girl it is just things I am feeling at the time and need to get them out of my head.  I truly truly dislike the feeling I get when being left out in the dark.  It is because I don't have kids and therefore don't get to be in what some would call the "cool crowd", or is it because my opinion really doesn't matter much or wouldn't change the outcome anyway?  Is it because I am overwhelmed because of so many changes at one time in my life?  Could it be all of the above?  Yes it could be, but I truly hope not.  I don't consider myself to be a major control freak but I guess in a sense I am sort of one.  When I feel like I don't have control I seem to overwhelm myself with other things that are on the back burner to push the other feeling aside.  God please help me through these feelings.  I know with you on my side these things are petty and will only be a distant memory in the morning.

A quote from one of my favorite songs.  Oceans by Hillsong

I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise my soul will rest in your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine


Jocelyn

Found notes about Bad things happening to Good people

Today I found notes that couldn't have come at a better time.  I see so many mixed things being said about Robin Williams.  Some saying he is selfish, some saying if only his assistant got their sooner, some even saying if he only had God.  Sadly we will never know what was really going on in his mind the minutes that lead up to his death. Nor will we know if he had talked to God begging him to take bring him home. Nor will we truly know how his judgement day went and I can only hope and pray he is finally home in peace with God.  But with everything that is going it brings up the found notes.  Why do bad things happen to good people?  For this we cannot blame something awful on God!  Bad things happen because good people make bad choices.  Or to put it simply the WORLD IS BROKEN.  1 Peter 5:8 says Be self-controlled and alert.  Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.   Romans 12:21 DO NOT BE OVERCOME BY EVIL, BUT OVERCOME EVIL WITH GOOD.

Please pray with me for the family of Robin Williams that they may find peace in this situation.

Have a blessed day

Jocelyn

All He says I am

This song reminds me that I am who God wants me to be and I am heading into the right direction.  Lately I seem to be getting emotional and stressed over things that I need to just go with it and know that everything will work out for the best as long as God seems fit.  When it comes to stressing and being sad that people don't want to step up and volunteer their time for things I need to remember those of us who are doing it and those of us who are dedicated to continue to and not let those who are not beat us down.  I will continue to do my work and work towards a much better and bigger goal in life and it will all be for the glory of God and nobody else.  I am even stepping out of my comfort zone and volunteering to be a assistant coach for a soccer team just because it is needed and I know it will be for the best or I wouldn't have been asked.



Have a blessed day



Jocelyn

Just like the rain

Just like the rain washing away old stuff and bringing new life.  Today was full up a little ups and downs.  Learning of one person moving onto to hopefully better things in life and learning to welcome something new and exciting.  As sad as things are when someone leaves, it is also exciting when someone new comes in and brings new life to situations.  I have been feeling defeated and sad that people just don't seem to care lately.  But hearing such news today brings hopes that things will work out and reminds me that GOD has a bigger plan that we all can imagine.  I feel the fire to pick up and run with things and hopefully Jesus will hold my hand and not let my mind go off path and think negatively again.  Keep my head held high and know that my God will get me through anything and when I get there I will laugh at the rocky steps I had to take to get there.  Here is to the new life that the rain is going to bring.

Have a blessed day

Jocelyn

Talking

Sometimes I feel I open my mouth and non sense comes out.  When I say something I feel is necessary to say and then later I feel guilty for saying stuff.  God will always be there I guess I need to talk to him more when I feel conflicted on things.

Have a blessed day

Jocelyn

2 Chronicles 19:4-7

Today's reading is about Jehoshaphat Appoints Judges.  I am really starting to like this closing my eyes and stopping and pointing and reading what I just pointed at.  This comes in connection with yesterday's post.  Verse 6-7 says:  He told them, "Consider carefully what you do, because you are not judging for man but for the Lord, who is with you whenever you give a verdict.  now let the fear of the Lord be upon you.  Judge carefully, for with the Lord our God there is no injustice or partiality or bribery."  Even though what I saw posted the other day I think was a poor choice.  I have to leave it that this person is well aware of what they did and I know (maybe not today) but some day they will realize what they did was in bad taste.  It has always been a hard thing for me to not judge people right off the bat based on their appearance.  The more I become closer to God the more I am learning we are all the same.  We are all seeking something and for some they are just seeking someone to love them or tell them they are pretty just the way there are.  I challenge you all to join me and start telling one person a day something that will make them smile.  Go out of your way and tell someone different that you don't see.  Whether it be a message, a text, a phone call.  Let's make others know they matter.

Have a blessed day

Jocelyn

Trying to not judge

I recently saw something that normally I would laugh at and think was funny and this time I thought really you should know better.  I'm struggling with the whole not passing judgement but should I say something with it being a fellow christian? !  Knowing it was all in fun but at the same time your a role model.  Please Lord tell me to either let it go out address it.

Have a blessed day

Jocelyn

Blessing and answered prayers

Good afternoon all.  Today's post is brought to you with many smiles.  This has been a truly amazing weekend and yet I barely left the house.  First reason it was great was yesterday I had a conversation with my husband on how he does truly believe in God.  I didn't want to push the subject any further but what may seem to be a small step to some is a giant leap for me.  God is good.  Second reason is yesterday I also learned that friends have been chosen to adopt a baby yet to be born.  I have been praying for them and yes God has his own timing and I am truly thankful he answered it for them.  But with this news I want you all to refer to a post I made on March 5, 2014.  The dream I had was the day before on March 4, 2014 and they are meeting with the agency tomorrow which is August 4, 2014 and the due date is December 4, 2014.  I just want to point out that from the date of my dream to the news it was 4 months and some days, and it is 4 months from the date they meet at the agency to get their new sweet heart, and as it was pointed out to me today from the time I had my dream to the due date it is a whole pregnancy term.  Oh how God shows us things is amazing.  GOD IS AWESOME!

Have a great day

Jocelyn