I choose. ....

Recently I heard a person say.  "Everyday we make a decision to be better. So every morning I say to myself: today I am going to be __________." 

So today I start my journey of saying this.  And today I Choose to be Nice. 

Treat others as you would want to be treated.

I need to completely remind myself everyday to TREAT OTHERS AS I WOULD WANT TO BE TREATED.  I do wish someone would remind others of that sometimes though.  Dealing with people who think they should be fed with a silver spoon is crazy to me.  We are all human and should be after the same goal, which to go to Heaven.  The people that are out there and past judgement on those when they need to look in the mirror and judge themselves first.  I try so hard to be open minded and love thy neighbors and treat others as I would want to be treated, but these days people make is so hard.  I come to you Lord asking that you give me the strength and remind me everyday to be kind to everyone.  Amen

Worry wart.

I was told that someone I knows soon tried to kill himself last night.  Such a scary thought.  Now my head and heart only want things to be better for them and cry for her and take away her pain and confusion.  How can something make someone want to end it all?   I come to you Lord and ask that you come to this family in their time of need and show them you are the one who intervened and did not allow for it to happen.  Surround them with all of their love and comfort.  Amen.

Good and the bad

What started out as a great day ended with new in tears.  Please God be with me right now.  Facebook may have its benefits but it also has its major lows.  Went on Facebook this evening only to realize that both sides of my husband's family and mine had parties for their kids and our invites must have got lost in the mail only because we don't have kids.  People need to realize things they do have consequences towards other people. 

4 Blood Moons

Dateline Israel Signs in the Heavens of a Four …: http://youtu.be/lTNHs9YN2_Y

I have recently had conversations with a few people about this.  I know God is the only one who knows when he is coming back.  But what if he gave signs as only to give this who need it to prepare for it.  Stuff like this only makes me want to strive to be the best that God wants me to be.  If anything I hope if you watch the video it just makes you think. 

Brothers and sisters

I've recently realized that I am very rich in family.  I'm not talking about my biological family.  I'm talking about my brothers and sisters in christ.  I am so greatful for SRCC and that God led me to the church.  I have met some great people. And I only hope many new faces come through the door and become part of this family.  I know no family is perfect but I truly believe God leads us all through ups and downs and if we can stand as a whole through those downs it will only make God's army that much stronger.   So I am arming myself to be a great warrior.   Who wants to stand next to me?

Intersting conversation

My brother in Christ George gets me talking about deep things sometimes.  Well this time he recommended that I watch a video about the 4 blood moons coming soon and the history of them.  Pretty interesting things that is for sure.  With watching the video I can help but think about the signs all around us.  in Acts 2:17-21 says:

In the last days, God says, I will pour out my Spirit on all people.  Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions, your old men will dream dreams, Even on my servants, both men and women.  I will our out my Spirit in those days, and they will prophesy, I will show wonders in the heaven above and signs on the earth below, blood and fire and billows of smoke.  The sun will be turned to darkness and the moon to blood before the coming of the great and glorious day of the Lord.  And everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.

I know that this has happened and very well could be sign of the coming days.  But only God knows when he will make his come back.  People like to freak out and get others freaked out about these things.  I say do what you can to get those you Love saved so you will see them again.  Be a speaker or the Lord and not be afraid.  I am not going to stress about the little things.  I am going to strive to be the best I can be in the name of the Lord and rest easy knowing where I am headed.  There is no need to freak out and panic.

Matthew 11:28-30

²⁸ “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. ²⁹ Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ³⁰ For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Have a blessed day in the Lord.

Jocelyn

Drive to work

This morning as I was driving to work the song came on.  Lord I need you and the crying began.  I realize I need to give my problems to god and let him lead me in the right direction.  If I can just keep reminding myself don't stress about it don't stress.  Then maybe I can learn to relax and just take things in stride. 

Getting dragged through the mud

This is a vent post about how aggravated I am about my life right now.  I just wish for once in my life I could start a nest egg in the bank to have in case of emergencies.  I really am at my wits end with being completely broke.  Things that need to be done and things that we wish to do in life is completely not even reachable because for some reason something out there is against me.  I do not know how I can handle this feeling anymore.  I am seriously at my wits end with always being broke (don't worry I am not going to harm myself).  I can pray that God helps me out and I know everything is on his time but I am right now getting impatient and I do not like this feeling.  Please anyone who reads this pray for me and my husband.  Also, pray that something loosens up and I can live comfortable without feeling how am I going to survive this week without money.  I try and give more at church and have been doing better the past few weeks but now that my awesome bank has decided to charge me over 100 for insufficient funds for one thing and left us with only 23 dollars for a week and neither one of us has gotten gas for our cars yet.  I am seriously panicing right now.  Sorry if I am full of self doubt right now. 

One person I cannot wait to see in heaven.

Yes I know I am posting two entries today.  But I had to share this.  Today my aunt posted this picture of my grandpa and lately every time someone makes a post about him or post a picture of him, it literally brings me to tears.  I miss this man more than anyone can imagine.  He was not just my grandpa he was my father figure, my hero, and my best friend.  The memory of sitting on his lap in his recliner during the summer time watching the Detroit Tigers is one of the best memories I have as a child. I would have rather of spent time with him than I would with my child hood friends. I cannot wait to see him again and get a huge hug from him.  I take comfort in knowing that the last words we said to each other was bye I love you.   I think maybe I cry so much now about him is because when he died I was in such denial that my world was falling apart that I did not cry or even so emotion during the so called grieving time of his death.  Now that I have had a good cry again today.  I will end this with a good note and say I will see you soon Grandpa.  Love you always.

Jocelyn

Song stuck in my head.

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I woke up this morning singing this song.  Today was a good day despite the weather we had outside.  I feel whenever I wake up with a worship song in my head it will always will be a great day.  Listening to the words of this song brings tears to my eyes.  The power of music can be such a great thing for the soul.  Today I feel completely close to God.

Looking at things differently

Sometimes I feel as if I am looking at the world through a looking glass.  Yesterday for instance I was at a birthday party for a 6 and 3 year old.  While I was there I observed the different families (the mother's and the father's) did not really mingle at all.  The father's side of the family was the main one's playing with the kids and having a good time.  While the mother's side of the family was sitting all at one table drinking beer after beer after beer and barely playing with the kids.  Now this sort of made me realize just because how two families in the same place for the same reason can be on opposite sides of the world.  Which makes me think about God.  If everyone would wake up and hear God's call to them how the world would be so much easier, friendlier.  If more people walked around with a smile on their face not letting the world intimidate them, then maybe the enemy would be a little easier to see.  I know this life is only the opening act to what is to come!   I can only dream if there was not so many road blocks in my way, on how much of my heart would be in God's hands completely.  I hope this makes sense to those that read this.  Sorry for the blabbing.

Closer

I have heard the closer you are to God the more the enemy will try and take you down.  I refuse to let that happen.  In fact I am going try and just get closer.  I may get overwhelmed here soon,  but I am going to take it in stride and not let myself stress out.  What I have planned I hope it works out and I get the green light.  It is only going to help with the recharge series just completed at SRCC.  I feel re fueled and ready to get it started. 

Blessing and a curse

I have heard many times people say that is a blessing and a curse.  Not until recently have I totally realized what that truly means.  I have always had a soft spot for forgiving people.  The forgiveness can be greatly redeeming but at the same time it can be a huge down fall.   When I forgive someone I usually put my guard right back down with them and trust them with my heart and my everything.  Here is the curse of that.  I get broken hearted and tend to put a guard up with everyone.  How can having a big heart for people be such a curse?  Recently an old friend has been in contact with a mutual friend and I am letting the feeling of being hurt by that person affect me.  I guess it hurts when I truly felt I had a friend in a person to only learn they say they never liked me in the first place.  The feeling of being used is so very hurtful.  Even though the way the friendship ended led me to God (I am more than thankful for that), I am still very scarred from that person.  God please hear me and give me the strength to leave the past in the past and to walk down the new path you are leading me down without looking back.  I truly love helping people and want to be a bigger blessing for those in need and in order to completely do that with my heart I need to learn to let go.  Not necessarily stop caring about those that hurt me but stop wondering and get it out of my head.   I pray that the ones who have hurt me find salvation in you.  Amen!

God Bless

Dreams

I have mentioned before how I have had dreams that have come true.  With talking with some in my life group I come to realize that when I have them they could be truly a message from God.  Like I could be a deliverer of good news.  Since I prayed to God and said if it is your will let me continue to have them.  The most recent dream I had was about this couple that goes to church is trying to extend their family.  Well in my dream they actually came to church saying they got a 4 week old little girl.  How exciting for them I hope and pray that this does come so true for them.

Let them see YOU!

COLTON DIXON LYRICS

"Let Them See You"

Take away the melodies
Take away the songs I sing
Take away all the lights
And all the songs You let me write
Does the man I am today
Say the words You need to say

Let them see You
In me
Let them hear You
When I speak
Let them feel You
When I sing
Let them see You
Let them see You
In me

Who am I without Your grace
Another smile, another face
Another breath, a grain of sand
Passing quickly through Your hand
I'd give my life, an offering
Take it all, take everything

Let them see You
In me
Let them hear You
When I speak
Let them feel You
When I sing
Let them see You
Let them see You
In me

With every breath I breathe
I sing a simple melody
But I pray they'll hear more than a song
In me, in me

Let them see You
In me
Let them hear You
When I speak
Let them feel You
When I sing
Let them see You

Oh, let them see You
In me
Let them hear You
When I speak
Let them feel You
When I sing
Let them see You
Just let them see You in me
Let them see You

I think of the words of this song and can only pray that I can be this person.  I strive to have God speak through me and I want to be the person that people want to be.  I want them to see God in me and see how much of a great impact he is making on my life.  I was praying the other night about my situation with people surrounding me at work questioning the great lord.  I wish I was not so shy and wish I had the words to say to them to make them know they are loved.  The problem I run into is how do I make people see the things I see when they have been there, they were raised in church and now years later they want to question some of the things they were taught when growing up.  One has said they believe in God and truly believe the bible is a path to the right direction but too many things are questioned lately.  So enough of the ranting about it and sitting here just writing about it.  I will pray for them and I will try and speak for God whenever I feel that I can.