I have heard many times people say that is a blessing and a curse. Not until recently have I totally realized what that truly means. I have always had a soft spot for forgiving people. The forgiveness can be greatly redeeming but at the same time it can be a huge down fall. When I forgive someone I usually put my guard right back down with them and trust them with my heart and my everything. Here is the curse of that. I get broken hearted and tend to put a guard up with everyone. How can having a big heart for people be such a curse? Recently an old friend has been in contact with a mutual friend and I am letting the feeling of being hurt by that person affect me. I guess it hurts when I truly felt I had a friend in a person to only learn they say they never liked me in the first place. The feeling of being used is so very hurtful. Even though the way the friendship ended led me to God (I am more than thankful for that), I am still very scarred from that person. God please hear me and give me the strength to leave the past in the past and to walk down the new path you are leading me down without looking back. I truly love helping people and want to be a bigger blessing for those in need and in order to completely do that with my heart I need to learn to let go. Not necessarily stop caring about those that hurt me but stop wondering and get it out of my head. I pray that the ones who have hurt me find salvation in you. Amen!
God Bless
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